From the recording The Camouflage Kid
Lyrics
You know, I never hit rock bottom
But I wish I had
I never lacked for health or food or shelter
I should be glad
What would remain of me if all those little luxuries were gone?
My name is Jon and I'm an addict
Hi, Jon
After every satisfaction
It's like, "What's next?"
I've eaten junk, blacked out drunk
Sabotaged close friendships with sex
The night before a deadline I'll play games on my computer until dawn
My name is Jon and I'm a liar
Hi, Jon
I never touched the hard stuff
Can't even picture what it'd do to me
No pleasure ever adds up to enough
To make it through to me
Suppose she wakes tomorrow knowing
I don't deserve her grace?
What vices will I turn to
When she can't even look me in the face?
I won't argue with the splinters of guitars across the lawn
When justice catches up to me for my unconscionable con
Will I look back and have to wonder, "God, what was I even on?"
My name is Jon and I'm an addict
Hi, Jon
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